the diAry of angi b.

embracing imperfection

journal entry 6/21/09 sometimes i'm out of focus and toss and turn for ages before falling asleep. uncertain about my personal path, at a stand-still on where i'm going. then i pray on it and realize i may be out of focus temporarily; yet i am still me... growing into the person I was meant to be. into the person i have been all along... learning to embrace imperfection.

shimelle's aRt jourNal class

thanks to Ali, i was insPired again to jUmp on the bandwAgon and signed up for shimelle's ArtJournal class. tHis is my first entry to my aRtjournal wHich is my mIssion stAtement for the jOurnal. i'm a self-PROCLAIMED perfectionist so i was hesitant to even Post this. my inner CRITIC said "YOU CAN'T POST THIS, it's a CHAOTIC MESS"... i didn't listen this time and decided to commit mySelf to bE fRee of that negative self-TALK.

i'm hAving a bLast so fAr...it's Going to be an interesting 20 Weeks...

"yOuR miNd is a gArdeN..."

" your mind is a garden

your thoughts are the seeds

the harvest can be either

flowers

or

weeds "

author unknown

as i was sitting at my computer at work this morning i had a revelation that came to me with such clarity. i know it's not an original idea and you might say that it's a conglomorate of ideas i've absorbed throughout my life that finally merged and arose to the surface. here i go off the deep-end:each one of us is on a journey. a unique and undefined journey that is given to us as a gift. during the course of our lives we cross paths with others who i believe are in our lives by Divine appointment. some we embrace wholeheartedly and others we would rather not. but they're there and i believe that we're supposed to learn something about ourselves through the people we encounter - good and bad {crossing paths provides some clue to our lives i think. clues that will help us to figure out what we're supposed to be doing or improving on} the same rings true in the circumstances we find ourselves in. do you ever see any recurring circumstances/themes in your life? everything has a purpose and i beleive that we are meant to embrace the moments that are given us (good and bad). each moment is a seed that will grow into something else and like the quote it could either be a flower or a weed.the older i get the more i have grown into the person i have always been. in other words we grow more into ourselves. we become self-accepting and comfortable in our own skin. everything and everyone has a purpose. the rose is meant to be beautiful with a sweet aroma, a cactus is predestined to thrive in the desert by retaining water. each of us has a special seed within us that is meant to grow into something unique and wonderful. "Bloom Where You Are Planted"... we may not fully understand our own purpose in this life, so for the moment

go with the flow

embrace the moments that are given us

accept who you are at this moment

count your blessings

see the good in everything

be glad for this small life which is your own